one of my first recorded writings

The pain seems like it is never ending, every word she says only causes the tears to go. The more she says the more intense the pain, all seems lost. Head throbbing, the red water starts flowing from the nose, staining anything in its path. All thoughts are blurred and slurred. Choking for air, all breathing is difficult. Eyes streaming tears, soaking the face and hands as the hands wipe away the tears. As time progresses those feelings of pain and sadness turn over to resentment and hatred. Wanting to inflict pain, make her suffer as this. Deep pants as the air comes surging into the lungs, all thoughts hell bent on revenge. Thoughts of forgiveness seem far away. Then the sight of her makes the anger and resentment slowly die, and the feeling of shame and lost pride emerge, choking out al the anger that has welled up inside. Forgiveness is o so close, thoughts finally cleared up again. Then all the sorrow is gone and forgiveness is achieved. Hopes arise that maybe one day things will work out after all.